From my journals this week:

"All my longings lie open before you, O Lord;
my sighing is not hidden from you." ~ Psalm 38:9

How comforting it is to me that my Heavenly Father is intimately aware of my heart's business. He knows my every thought, every anguish, every insane burst of joy.... The truth that He understands me allows me to stop striving, toiling for acceptance and validation. I am loved.

At any given point, I probably have 100 random thoughts going in my mind. Some of them are as minute as "I think I only drank 8 cups of water today," "a cream sweater would go well with my brown pants, especially if I wore the gold earrings, etc." to the big ones like, "campus ministry is where my heart is at this moment," "what does God's unfailing love look like in my life." The past couple of weeks have been huge. I feel a shift in the mood and direction of my life -- a shift that began 10 years ago, but was stopped short. I'm terrified! AND excited! And all of the big emotions in between.

More to come...